Monday, April 1, 2013

unprepared

I was unprepared for a frozen hot chocolate this big, and thus, I was more than prepared to share it with one of my favorite people. I was equally unprepared for its utter deliciousness! Thanks, Serndipity 3!
I was unprepared for the awesomeness of Wicked...and for the silly exhaustion that jet lag plagued me with throughout the show...









I was unprepared for the beauty of the Brooklyn Bridge. Admittedly, I was a bit skeptical of Laura's insistence about walking the bridge from Brooklyn to Manhattan...she was most totally right! (I was also unprepared for how much I would love my iPhone and all of its capabilities...)
I was unprepared for the fun of gliding around Rockefeller's ice rink...ok, so maybe "gliding" is used pretty loosely. Perhaps, scooting or shuffling or stumbling would be more accurate...but hey, I only fell twice.

 I was unprepared for how much fun it would be and how much I would once again thank my God for this most amazing friend and the joy of getting to live and love life with her!
 I was unprepared for both the thrill and the pain of running in the cold. I was unprepared for the wind that induced tears...and then froze them to my face. I was unprepared for numb toes and a nose that ran faster than my feet.
 I was unprepared for the snow. It is supposed to be spring after all...
 I was unprepared for a lot of things. I tried to prepare myself, but there is only so much that one can prepare. It is simply not possible to be able to anticipate what will happen. I was prepared for transitioning to be difficult...and it has been in many ways that are difficult to articulate. I was prepared for many people to have no frame of reference for where I have been, for who I have become and am continuing to become. I was prepared to be asked questions I did not really want to answer...or did not know how to answer.
But, ultimately, I was and am unprepared for many things. I am unprepared, but I remain confident.

Therefore, since we have been made right in God's sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God's glory. We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because He has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with His love. ~ Romans 5:1-5