Monday, January 2, 2012

every minute

I am long on staying. I am slow to leave, especially when it comes to you, my friend. You have taught me to slow down and to prop up my feet. It's the fine art of being who I am. And I can't figure out why you want me around. I'm not the smartest person I have ever met, but somehow that doesn't matter, no, it never really mattered to you at all. And at the risk of wearing out my welcome, at the risk of self discovery, I'll take every moment and every minute that you'll give me.

I like relationships. Deep ones. In the past couple months, I have been incredibly thankful for the amazing people in my life. I am thankful for friends with whom I can kick off my shoes and stay awhile, friends with whom I can be completely me, friends with whom I can cry both tears of joy and tears of pain, friends with whom I know the welcome will never wear out, friends with whom I can further discover myself.

And I can think of a time when families all lived together, four generations in one house, and the table was full of good food and friends and neighbors. That's not how we like it now. 'Cause if you sit at home you're a loser. Couldn't you find anything better to do? Well, no, I couldn't think of one thing I would rather waste my time on that sitting here with you. And at the risk of wearing out my welcome, at the risk of self discovery, I'll take every moment and every minute that you'll give me.

I am confident that I would qualify as a "loser" if the requirements were that you sit at home without anything better to do. Fortunately for me, I quite enjoy being that "loser." I am incredibly thankful for my family, for my friends, for tables full of good food and rooms filled with laughter and joy. No, there is nothing I would rather waste my time on.

And I wish all the people I love the most could gather in one place and know each other and love each other well. And I wish we could all go camping and lay beneath the stars and have nothing to do and stories to tell. We'd sit around the campfire and we'd make each other laugh remembering when. You're the first one I'm inviting, always know that you're invited, my friend. And at the risk of wearing out my welcome, at the risk of self discovery, I'll take every moment and every minute that you'll give me...

There are people I love from all corners of the globe, and I earnestly desire that all the people I love would be able to gather in one place. No matter where I am, I am always missing someone. However, I think this has made me appreciate, cherish even, every minute that I am able to spend with people. I am thankful for whatever time I am given with them. Sometimes it just isn't enough, but I am thankful just the same and hopeful that there will be more cherished moments. You're always invited, my friend...

"Every Minute" by Sara Groves

1 comment:

  1. Oh Heather you make me cry. I wish the same so often. I wish I could help little children like you do, but then my part is to be here, and one day, someday we will all be together. It will be the most amazing awesome day where we will be singing His praises all day long. Our loved ones will be around us (we hope) and the light of the Lord will be shining all around us. What a day of rejoicing that will be - when we all get to heaven, we will sing and shout the victory.
    I love you and your heart Heather Blanch. I'm looking forward to seeing you again. Safe travels darling friend!
    Juls

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